maybe something like this is good for me. or maybe it will make me worse. i dont like to have power in any way, this is intimidating.
usually people do like to have power, and maybe power is good sometimes, but ive spent a long time leading people and things to the point where i dont
want to be percieved. that may be why im so lazy. it feels great to lie back and not have to do anything. if i could lie down and not do anything for the
rest of my life i would. im not super depressed, i dont know what i am.
ill hold back a bit in my first entries because i dont want any random person browsing be able to know all of my personal business. only people that get to
the second page and beyond get to know my deepest darkest secrets. you have to be dedicated enough to click a button.
thank the lord that im not famous or popular or anything silly. i can just say and do whatever i want and it doesnt matter. but i chose to do things
that dont hurt me or the people i love because im not a psycho
but why would you want to hurt someone? i dont understand the people that dont have atleast a bit or morality. i suppose its mental illness,
but fuck you and your mental disability if it causes you to harm people.
i think everyone involved with the government are real life demons. i never really believed in religous things, but i think elon musk, trump, and any other
of those politician freaks are imps hidden in human skin. they can claim that they are religious if they want, but only god knows what they truly are.
maybe ill customize this page. it might be too late though. maybe when im high ill get a sudden boost of energy
ive been missing my friend a lot recently. she died from suicide months ago in 2024. she was genuinely the best, nicest, and most fun person
ive ever met in my entire life. i miss her a lot. i was in love with her but i hate mentioning it because she was so much more than just a
love interest. going to her funeral was the scariest thing ive ever done. i looked at her in the open casket and she didnt even look like herself
if you're thinking this is someone you know. no it isnt
ive been so desperate my whole life for somebody to love, or for someone to bring me romantic pleasure. at times, ive thought about exposing myself to
strangers on the internet, because then maybe they'd appreciate me. but i havent, its just a weird thought. im a girl, but i feel just as disgusting as a man.
"femcel" is such an annoying word thats just used by a bunch of slightly weird girls that actually do get laid. im unwillingly celibate and cannot get into
a relationship. im nice to everyone around me, im just a loser. and i wont take this anger out on anyone, because thats fucked, i dont want to do that.
im sure ill meet someone some day, but i want some day to be now so badly. my standards are unimaginably low.
